(08-19-25, Tuesday, 1:16PM)

I recently read this quote from some podcast that said, "You are what you say you are." And I really resonate with it, after dealing with some insane self esteem issues over the past few years, if you tell yourself over and over everday that you are disgusting and unlikeable your actions and how you presesnt yourself /will/ come to reflect that mindset. I think this also ties in with the concept of "learned helplessness", I forgot the specifics but a famous experiment in regards to the subject was one where puppies were repeatedly shocked, and despite the dog repeatedly making attempts to try and prevent the shocking they would still be shocked. Eventually when the dogs were placed in a different senario where they /did/ have the ability to prevent a shock their prior experiences of futality made it so that they would instead lie helplessly on the ground and let themselves be shocked because they believed that there was no possible way to stop it. Personally, I believe with my full entire heart that if you really set your mind to something and want it that badly, you can achieve anything. As long as you keep trying with everything you've got and have full-sure confidence in yourself I fully believe that you can get what you want even if it takes years or even decades. But my issue is that I fully believe that certain things are just impossible, that certain things could never *ever* be attainable by someone the likes of me. Even though I know that objectively speaking, nothing is impossible and there are very few factors in the way of me getting whatever it is I want.